Changes

Days are pretty rough recently

cried a lot, and of course, grew a lot 

After these days, the lesson that I have learnt is 

put yourself first. 

It's not like I'm saying don't take other things seriously

but

maybe just put yourself in the very first place every time,

especially in a relationship.

Sometimes, when you put someone far more important than you in your heart,
you get hurt.
It's because you want him better
and you try to change him.
You will get utterly sad when he fails to meet your expectation
and at last, the one who's hurting will be you.

I used to be a very bad temper partner,
I get mad easily as I am sensitive
and stubborn cuz I am not willing to change.
For me,
making a change for a relationship means I compromised.
Making a change means
he doesn't love me,
and therefore, I need to change
into someone he likes.

But
for now
I will change.
I promise to change into a better partner,
I will change into someone better and more lovable.

I don't want to just let someone I love to go
because I know I will regret this for life.
I want us.

I am sorry for all the pain I caused.
I know I get extra mean
when I am sad & mad.

Thank you for not leaving me behind
and
always be there for me.



Kiss&hug