My 20

I can't belive I am turning 20 this year, like seriously. I am an adult now (???)

okay

Time to accept this truth, I am turning 20 this year.

Let's talk about the celebration!

I had my birthday dinner with my boyfriend at 32 Mansion. 

Thanks for bringing me to this beautiful restaurant & the beautiful present, Josh. 

Thank you Josh, thanks for the effort.

you're always the sweetest.

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Turning 20 means a lot to me,

its like a reminder.

It reminds me to start taking things seriously.

Not to say I don't take things seriously before that, its like I should start to listen to the little voice in me aka my instinct. 

I always feel that I lost the little 'perfectionist habit' in me since I was 13. 

I was kinda a perfectionist when I am in primary school, I will always try my best in everything I do.

But this habit is gone after I graduated from primary school. Maybe I was shy in high school, I don't have the guts to voice out my opinion, I don't try as hard as I was in primary school in exam or even other competitions, or maybe I just get lazy by age :o Hahahahaha

Other than that,

Do things that make me happy instead of telling myself to fake happiness.

I want to be honest to myself, I am not going to compromise because in the end, I am the only one that are going to be responsible for my own feelings. 

It is your responsible to make yourself happy not others.

My goal is to sleep happily and soundly every nights, no more tears and sadness following me to sleep.

Always stay true to myself.

And lastly, 

I want to say thank you to this wonderful woman, my mom.

Thanks for raising me in your way, I am really proud of who I become today.

yes, your baby girl is turning 20 and she will try her best 

to make you proud. 

Thanks for everything mummy, love you a lot.

kiss&hugs 

2016

Happy new year guys!

New year new me what, so I am going to write a 2016 resolutions post (Apparently).

2015 has been a year full of ups and downs. Starting of my degree, new course, new friends, relationship and everything. Its a year full of tears, joy and frustration.

Even though it was not as good as I wish it is, but still, I am completely grateful for all the things that happened on me no matter it is sad or happy, truly grateful. Its time to say goodbye for the craps and shits in 2015, and get myself ready for this year.

Looking back to 2015, there are a lot of mistakes I have made. Silly and ridiculous. And I am not going to repeat those mistakes, not going to let the same thing torture me. 

Here go the resolutions for 2016

1. Be brave, tough

    Let go of all the things that hurt me and make me sad, I don't deserve that, nobody does.

2. Be more confident 

    Nobody has the power to take your thing, if they did, that thing apparently doesn't belong to you. 

    And that is nothing to do with you, sometimes we have to let go  certain things to get better. You 

    did well.

3. Be independent
    Stop relying on others, mentally or physically. Lesson I have learnt in 2015 is nobody is going to
    to be there forever for you, not even the one who said they will. There will be time you have to
    face the dark side of yourself alone in night, it's okay, we will survive.

4. Positive
    I can feel I am getting more and more negative day by day, mentally and physically. I have to train
    myself to think more on the bright side instead of worrying things are going to the wrong way.

5. Get rid of insomnia
    This is like one of the most annoying thing evah. Lay on your bed and wide awake for hours, this
    is when those negative shits come in.

6. Travel (!!)
    Must travel more.

7. Better result
    I wanna learn more things this year, must be more hardworking compare to last year bcuz I have
    been a really lazy ass on 2015, I admit that.

8. Be considerate
    I need to be more considerate to people. I know I like to get mad for ridiculous reasons, but that's
    me, I promise I will try. :(

9. Love
    Spend more time with my family and people who are important to me. Make everything good.

10. Make myself skillful
      Learn another skill, make myself happy.

I wish 2016 is going to be good, we all wish.

All the best to you too!

love&hugs

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