One year

One year can change a lot of things.  

I started my relationship with my boyfriend on last year's today, 29 October 2014. 

I am always curious about how my boyfriend will be when I was small. 

How is it feels like when you get to share everything with him, you get to hold his hands, 

get help from him without feeling sorry or embarrassed, 

you can let him see your imperfection, 

or eventually he'll know because he's your boyfriend, 

you can get mad with him without feeling sorry (I did that a lot) 

well of course when he did something wrong (or maybe not) 

or something I don't like. :p

Lately, I know I blogged a lot of emotional posts. 

Yes, I was sad because of the conflict we had recently. 

I still can't take it very well even I tried and that still affect me a lot, mentally. 

So I hope you can bear with me on this and 

do this for me. 

I am still very insecure.

I always wanted to say thank you, a lot, for treating me like a princess and try your best to give me the best. I appreciate that and I hope you can stay like that forever. Well who don't want to get treated as a princess :p I know I might look bossy, cold and unappreciate your kind act sometimes but trust me, I will always think back when I get home and tell myself how lucky I am.

Last night, 29/10/2015

I still think I am the luckiest girl to have you by my side
&
face this world with me

Happy Anniversary.





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I have a dream

I have a dream

someday when everything goes right 

I have a job I like

it might be busy or leisure,

with or without the love of my life

we all know we can't rush things

we'll just let it be,

I'll have tea in quietness 

in my own house 

It might be an apartment

just like those I saw in tumblr

please bear with my little imagination

it will locate in a nice place 

surrounded with plants and nature

&

my mind will be clear and calm

----

Or maybe someday

I will travel to the country I like

I don't have to rush 

I can walk all those little streets 

have ice cream or hot chocolate

and buy those cute little flowers

take photos instead of fake candid shots

visit museum, heritage spots 

how wonderful it will be.

We all know these sound easy well, in fact, its not 

But 

It's still good to have a little imagination, a little excitement for the future

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Will you be responsible for my feelings?

Every person can make you feel something, 

either pleasant or the opposite.

But the very first thing before they make you feel something, 

do you allow them?

Do you give them the right, the ability?

Lesson that I have learned is 

its fully depended on you.

If you do not give them the ability,

they are nothing.

Their words, action wouldn't affect you or hurt you.

But, if you love someone,

shouldn't you give them the power,

to make you happy,

and sad too.

If I feel sad about the things you did, 

that means I care.

If I don't, 

then maybe we have reached the end. 

Fighting with you ain't easy.

But you have to understand I am trying to fight for us.

Is it that hard for you to fulfill my request,

or at least do it to stop my overthinking 

and let me trust you more.

I know I sound inconsiderate & ridiculous. 

I know, I always know. 

Just please, 

do it as in you're fulfilling some unreasonable kid request.

Sorry, if this decision is hard for you.
I hope they are worth it.

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