I am the bad one, not you.

Had a lot of fights with him recently. 

Things are not going very well these days. 

My temper is getting worst and worst. 

Maybe we are outgrowing each other, or maybe its just me. 

I am sorry is all that I can say. 

For all the sleepless night, disappointment, mean words. 

You deserve so much more.

I am afraid that I might not be the one who deserve this precious gift. 

Look at all those mess I have made. 

All that Ive done is just picking out all those bad things, 

making you feel like shyt

instead of focus on the positive. 

Such pathetic & ridiculous. 

sorry again, the one who love me so much,

when I don't even know how to love myself.

Trust me, I am still learning how to love.

now playing- paper hearts

- I guess its a self-defense- 

When i was a little girl, I thought everything was easy. No lies no heartbreaks, there are no bad things in this world. I forget since when this mindset had leave me but I do still hoping that this world is still the world what I thought it is. How wonderful if good things remain un-change. It will definitely be a lot easier. Where's the little angels that live in our heart, where have they been. There are no angels, only you facing your own problems in the middle of the night, thinking why can't things be a little more easier, less complicated. I do think I make it complicated, its my mind that ruined everything.
I have spend lots of days on this short post. I continue it every time when I am sad. How bad I wish I can just delete this post happily. Good day everyone //

love&hugs